I believe God longs for everyone—including you and me—to be saved and to share in His kingdom. This isn’t a distant or abstract truth but deeply personal once we learn to receive His love. But I also know that the gift of free will means we have the power to accept or turn away from that love. And when I pause to consider Saint Ignatius’s advice—to ponder with deep affection how the Lord wishes to give Himself to me—something in me softens. It reminds me that His desire isn’t just for the world, but for me personally.
Free will is a gift that I sometimes use wisely and other times not so much. I’ve noticed that when I misuse it, it’s not that God withdraws—it’s more like I lose the ability to recognize His presence. But prayer helps me find my way back. It’s not just speaking words; it’s opening my heart to the possibility of being changed.
I remember a moment when life felt heavy—grief pressing into me like fog. Instead of distracting myself, I prayed, “Lord, if You wish to give Yourself to me, I’m here.” I didn’t hear anything dramatic. But a quiet peace came. It was gentle, like a soft blanket around my soul. I knew I was not alone.
So today, I try to stay open. If God is always offering Himself, then maybe all I need to do is open my heart with a yes. His kingdom isn’t just a hope for tomorrow—it’s a presence waiting to meet me now. When I accept the invitation to receive love.
Smitten With Goodness 