Was I hurt today without anyone noticing?
Last year, I celebrated a work anniversary milestone. During a staff meeting, my manager presented me with a token representing my years of service and then quickly moved on to other business. I was a little surprised but did my best not to dwell on it as this is not unusual for where I work. Then, two weeks ago, one of my colleagues celebrated the same work anniversary milestone as I had the prior year, but this time, there was a big celebration and a lot of recognition for my colleague. It was hard for me not to compare the two situations and become upset by what I perceived to be disparate treatment. I was hurting but did not share that hurt with my colleagues.
As I began spiraling into negative thoughts, comparisons, and hurt feelings, I stopped myself by reminding myself of the words of the Litany of Humility. I realized that my thoughts and feelings were leading me down a path to sins of pride. I recognized that I needed to step back and ask God to deliver me from the desires of being esteemed, honored, and recognized. I had forgotten that even if no one sees or recognizes me, God always sees me and that He is really the only audience that I should be concerned with. When I live out the virtue of humility, I place my trust in God, asking Him to purify me of selfish desires and fears, and replace them with selfless desires. While this is not an easy task for me, I know that it will help me on my path to holiness.
Did I remember to turn to God with the hurt and pain I experienced today?
Thank you, God, for always seeing me and loving me. May I place my trust in You to deliver me from my pain and suffering. Grant me a heart that is humble and true to You. Authentically Yours.
Smitten With Goodness 