Anxiety can wreak havoc in my life. If I allow it to, it robs me of my joy, the little bits of heaven I receive from living in the present moment. When I am preoccupied with the external events of my life, they can consume a lot of my time and energy. This keeps me from accepting the gift of peace that I am promised through my relationship with God.
Fundamentally, I’ve learned my struggle indicates a worship problem. The anxiety is a gift as it points me back in the right direction. I ask myself this question: “is the Lord sovereign over my life?” I realize my suffering is because I’ve taken over the wheel of control.
Sometimes I imagine myself driving my car, stopping, and putting it in park. Then walking over to the passenger’s side, all the while inviting Jesus to get back in the driver’s seat. AGAIN! I chuckle while fastening my seatbelt, then sit back and enjoy the ride.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.Philippians 4:7
Lord, how can it be that I struggle so much with surrendering to You? I don’t understand it but by your grace, I have unshakeable peace in Your goodness. Thy will be done. Amen.