What words do I speak throughout the day?
Words are powerful. They can be life giving or they can be destructive. When I started to notice my words, it revealed to me what was living in my heart. The times I would get caught up in gossip or comparison conversations with others, I noticed that I was feeling unworthy and less than. Once I shifted to do something life affirming for myself, I didn’t feel drawn to participate in those destructive, gossipy conversations.
The other day I noticed how bossy I was being towards my husband. I stopped in my tracks when I realized this and made an apology. This pause and amends gave me an indicator I needed to take a break and figure out what was going on inside of me.
We bring to the world what is in our hearts. I’m self-aware enough to know that it is usually my fear, driven by my stinkin thinkin, that pushes me into my control mode. I’m learning to notice these evil thoughts, take them to prayer, and ask for divine help to show me what’s true, right, and just. This practice draws me to my true self rather than desecrates me, God’s temple.
“But the words you speak come from the heart, that’s what defiles you. For from the heart evil thoughts, murder, adultery, all sexual, immorality, theft, lying, and slander. These are what defile you.” Matthew 15:18
Over time, I’m learning a new mindset, one that focuses on God’s promises and loving truths rather than the lies that come from my ego or false self that was groomed by this world. By looking at the depth of my conversations each day, I can peek through the window in my heart to see what’s living inside.
How are my conversations?
Thank you, Lord, for opening my eyes toward Your ways and showing me the sacredness of what lives in my heart. Authentically Yours